[WARNING] These posts contain themes such as mental disorders, suicide and traumatic experiences. If you are sensitive to these themes, DON'T READ FURTHER. You've been warned. >> Proceed?
Okay so, it's about 1:34 AM right now and I know I haven't posted in a while but a lot has happened, well I've met some people and reunited with some older friends, however, not everything was good because well, I don't know if you remember the Russian girl I said I met before, well I met her again I think, I don't remember if it was last week? Oh no, nevermind it was two weeks ago. Aaanyway, the thing is I met a lot of people this past 3 weeks and a lot has changed, the old friends group that I was a couple of years ago? Gone. Two of my friends that are still there say that pretty much the group has been disbanded because nobody is getting online nowadays and it makes me feel both relieved and a tad sad (a tad sad, lol, funny) the thing is, I've been meeting a lot of girls because well, I want a girlfriend that is blonde, has blue eyes, white skin and is pretty and that also has a personality that's like chill and that likes to do stuff like videogames, stay in the house and read a book, watch anime and movies from time to time, cartoon series that are actually good like Adventure Time and such, that has got dreams and that she wants to achieve them, that wants to have kids, that also is healthy in general, etc etc. But I'm just getting kinda tired of waiting because I feel like nowadays, everyone is weird, like WEIRD WEIRD, like people that were what back in the day we would've called "normal" are pretty much an endangered species and I'm one of them. Of course I know that I have some stuff of my own too, but I'm not weird, I'm different of course but not weird. I like anime of course, I like cartoons like Adventure Time, animations like Murder Drones and such, games such as Z.A.T.O., Undertale, etc. But dude, idk why everyone that I find there are just... unbearably weird, like there are furries, people that don't talk to you for more than 5 minutes even though you lend your hand to continue the conversation, people that go to parties and discos and such, but there's no moderate and well, fairly regular people. THEY ARE ALL LIKE ALIENS and the worst part is that I just feel like everyone is like that right now because either that or they treat you like a criminal that wants to rob them and bruh, I just want to talk a bit, why can't I just ask you your Instagram just for contact? Why can't I just approach and do a regular conversation to you and you just have to push me away? Like why are people like this now?????? It doesn't make sense really and honestly, it just wears me out for romantic relationships, I still have hope of course but it's just annoying and tiring to keep waiting for a girl that fits my criteria to appear in my life. I hate it, I hate it a lot and honestly, I'm 24, WHY IS IT TAKING SO LONG?! *Sigh* Look, I know that it might just be taking its time but come on man, I've been waiting for 19 years by now. Idk, I'm tired, I think I'll go to sleep. See ya people and if you want to contact me, I'll leave my mail here in case you want to: andremurrgames@gmail.com So yeah, see ya and take care everyone.